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The Trials of Trauma

I was always in such a rooted, permanent state of anxiety that eventually when the stress bottled up to be too much my fight or flight would kick in full force. I didn’t have bad days. I had explosive ones. I was scared to be happy and comfortable.

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High Expectations vs Negative Expectations

Living up to high expectations is hard. We have them for ourselves, people who love us the most have them for us, and even people who seem to have only the most basic interest or understanding of us do too. They seem well-intentioned, say that they see all the potential we have, but realistically it […]

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Trying To Be Good

Trying to be honest about yourself in a public way is very challenging. For me, it’s not about the introspection. It’s more about getting over how people are going to react once the story changes. Self-improvement, self-understanding, self-anything is not set in stone. There are days I write from the highest point of my experiences; […]

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Lessons From 31 Days of Yoga

Over all, I learned to be real with myself. I learned that my ego is telling me I deserve the things that won’t serve me. That fear is what keeps me from doing things that seem strange, like guided meditation. That progress is a slow, and often fickle bitch that will not give me what I want but instead keeps me aware of what I need.

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“I Just Need Space”

Space, I’ve realized, is having the capacity to do the things you want and need to make you feel good without having to feel guilty about it. It’s a physical state, as well as a mental state.

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Un-Confined

Au naturel or contour? Will painting my nails make me feel pretentious? Can I do the make-up without the wardrobe or hair? Do I want to drink wine and play board games tonight or read until 2AM? I have these small conflicts with myself almost every day. It kind of starts with who do I feel […]

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Active Trust vs. Passive Trust

Innately, we trust people emotionally because of our instincts. The way they treat us, make us feel, open themselves up, etc. We can see distinctly the way in which we can trust people by the way they act – whether we’re consciously making these distinctions or not.

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Hunter S. Thompson’s Letter of Advice on Finding Your Purpose

In April of 1958, a 22 year-old Hunter S. Thompson wrote a letter on the meaning of life when asked by a friend for advice. What makes his response all the more profound is the fact that at the time, the world had no idea that he would become one of the most important writers of the 20th […]

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Note to Self: Consistency Is Key (for a different lock)

Being consistent isn’t doing the “right” things at the “right” intervals. It isn’t all about creating a routine and sticking to it. It’s about consistently trying to do what feels good. By not letting what I’ve predetermined what I want for myself to interrupt what I need to do for myself.

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