I am lonely. Or very close to it. So I never call to hang out. I believe it was Rupi Kaur who said “Loneliness means you are in desperate need of yourself” and holy shit is that ever true.Read more
Loneliness once scared the shit out of me. After I lost my partner of four years, I had no idea how to just be. I had spent most of our relationship putting my love, my energy and my time into him and when he left, I had nowhere to put it anymore. I was forced […]Read more
Living up to high expectations is hard. We have them for ourselves, people who love us the most have them for us, and even people who seem to have only the most basic interest or understanding of us do too. They seem well-intentioned, say that they see all the potential we have, but realistically it […]Read more
Over all, I learned to be real with myself. I learned that my ego is telling me I deserve the things that won’t serve me. That fear is what keeps me from doing things that seem strange, like guided meditation. That progress is a slow, and often fickle bitch that will not give me what I want but instead keeps me aware of what I need.Read more
GROW WITH THE LONELY: Intense, long feelings do not go away over night. These things take time to grow and they will take time to chip away at too. Some days you will hit a tender spot. Some days you will be able to take out a good chunk and walk around with a weight off your shoulders. Remember that we contain ourselves, and those spaces you create will be filled with something else. Try to focus on what you want instead of what you have lost. Be easy with yourself as you nurture parts of you that maybe have not seen kindness in a while.Read more
What are your expectations for yourself?
I’m gonna answer this short and sweet. Expectations are a strength and a weakness. It is important to have hunger and to strive – but setting unrealistic and scary goals, can lead to disappointment and really intense unhappiness. My expectations are of happiness and love.Read more
38 hours is the worst amount of time to be home. It’s just enough to feel relief in the uber home, when the evening air is still warm and the city still looks the same as you’re driving down lakeshore. It’s enough time to feel panicked about everything you have to do but not enough […]Read more
How do you think you are seen in the world?
I think people in general have a hard time understanding my choices. We’re all so driven to save money for when we get old, that we miss out on our young lives and arrive at year 80 full of regret. I’m happy that I’ve decided to live in the moment, because I can choose to change my life and do different things whenever I want to. In a sense, it’s like time travel. When I’m too old to do any of this, I won’t be able to change the past. In essence, it just doesn’t click with people. Questions like, “What will you do when you’re older? When will you start to save money? Do you think you’ll eventually decide to live a normal life? What about a career?” are the type that I receive on a daily basis. And the people who ask me those questions should be ashamed of themselves. Snap out of it, the definition of an accomplished life is solely my decision. I’d rather have a sea of memories than a business card which gives my existence a certain status.Read more
How has your art brought about an understand of yourself/your world? I believe photography can show you two different points of view in the world. It can show you the overwhelming sadness, hurt, and negativity of it or photography can teach you to see the beauty of it. My art is portrait photography; it has […]Read more
Are you who you want to be? Who is that person?
Of course! We all should be who we want to be, regardless of if we believe it or not. Who am I? I’m Amy Jo. I’m a lover, giver and creator.Read more