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Sifting Through My Education

It seems obvious, but I needed the reminder. She said, “if you need to put your head down and just get through school, then maybe that’s what you need to do. But, every time you talk about your housemates, you laugh and you smile. And so, I have a feeling that although you hate school, you don’t hate everything about being here. And I want to remind you that you will never get to experience these 12 weeks ever again in your life.”

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I Don’t Call Because I’m Lonely

I am lonely. Or very close to it. So I never call to hang out. I believe it was Rupi Kaur who said “Loneliness means you are in desperate need of yourself” and holy shit is that ever true.

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The Upside to Pain

Loneliness once scared the shit out of me. After I lost my partner of four years, I had no idea how to just be. I had spent most of our relationship putting my love, my energy and my time into him and when he left, I had nowhere to put it anymore. I was forced […]

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High Expectations vs Negative Expectations

Living up to high expectations is hard. We have them for ourselves, people who love us the most have them for us, and even people who seem to have only the most basic interest or understanding of us do too. They seem well-intentioned, say that they see all the potential we have, but realistically it […]

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Lessons From 31 Days of Yoga

Over all, I learned to be real with myself. I learned that my ego is telling me I deserve the things that won’t serve me. That fear is what keeps me from doing things that seem strange, like guided meditation. That progress is a slow, and often fickle bitch that will not give me what I want but instead keeps me aware of what I need.

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What I Learned From Loneliness

GROW WITH THE LONELY: Intense, long feelings do not go away over night. These things take time to grow and they will take time to chip away at too. Some days you will hit a tender spot. Some days you will be able to take out a good chunk and walk around with a weight off your shoulders. Remember that we contain ourselves, and those spaces you create will be filled with something else. Try to focus on what you want instead of what you have lost. Be easy with yourself as you nurture parts of you that maybe have not seen kindness in a while.

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38 hours

38 hours is the worst amount of time to be home. It’s just enough to feel relief in the uber home, when the evening air is still warm and the city still looks the same as you’re driving down lakeshore. It’s enough time to feel panicked about everything you have to do but not enough […]

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Self-Care To-Go

9.Give yourself a voice
Giving yourself the power to voice how you are feeling takes away power from the things inside of you that are telling you you’re scared, anxious, worried. I always tell my coworkers and partner when I’m having a tough day. Not only does it make me feel better to not internalize everything, but it helps me to try and change how I am feeling, be aware of how others are affected, and also let the people in my life know that it’s not them.

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Hunter S. Thompson’s Letter of Advice on Finding Your Purpose

In April of 1958, a 22 year-old Hunter S. Thompson wrote a letter on the meaning of life when asked by a friend for advice. What makes his response all the more profound is the fact that at the time, the world had no idea that he would become one of the most important writers of the 20th […]

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Society; Everyone Has A Place, But It’s Not A Place For Everyone

Our choices start becoming projections of what is easy for us to see in others instead of what it is true for us to be. We start making decisions based on how we fit into other peoples peripheral vision instead of how we fit into our own bodies and minds and clothes. Who we are has become less about our true nature and more about the truth that society will see. We put up a face to protect our own.

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