FEEL, LEARN

Letting It Go

We went home and the feeling continued to burn inside me, like a fire that started out small years ago, that I poured tears onto to keep at bay and I had tamed it for years, but I was done crying, I was mad and I was run dry. I knew now I could either let it burn me or I had to let it out.

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FEEL, LEARN

The Trials of Trauma

I was always in such a rooted, permanent state of anxiety that eventually when the stress bottled up to be too much my fight or flight would kick in full force. I didn’t have bad days. I had explosive ones. I was scared to be happy and comfortable.

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LEARN

Sifting Through My Education

It seems obvious, but I needed the reminder. She said, “if you need to put your head down and just get through school, then maybe that’s what you need to do. But, every time you talk about your housemates, you laugh and you smile. And so, I have a feeling that although you hate school, you don’t hate everything about being here. And I want to remind you that you will never get to experience these 12 weeks ever again in your life.”

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LEARN

Active Trust vs. Passive Trust

Innately, we trust people emotionally because of our instincts. The way they treat us, make us feel, open themselves up, etc. We can see distinctly the way in which we can trust people by the way they act – whether we’re consciously making these distinctions or not.

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LEARN

Bad Habits

I’m trying to unravel these things. Trying to build a better model. Attempting to instead of always understand why I feel I need them, to just understand that I can’t keep doing them. That knowledge isn’t always the key to moving forward, and that I don’t have to always disassemble the bad to build up the good.

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HEAR

Lost Songs – Teagan Johnston

I spent a lot of time leading up to our move to Toronto and during our first months here writing and recording songs alone at home with just me and my piano. It was a really interesting time of solitude for me in music and although I would never want to go back to that, a lot of good came from it.

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LEARN

Fixing Fight or Flight

We’re all deserving of a break, especially from the expectations of our minds. You don’t need to fight or flight from taking a step back and a deep breath in.

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LEARN, LIVE

Self-Care To-Go

9.Give yourself a voice
Giving yourself the power to voice how you are feeling takes away power from the things inside of you that are telling you you’re scared, anxious, worried. I always tell my coworkers and partner when I’m having a tough day. Not only does it make me feel better to not internalize everything, but it helps me to try and change how I am feeling, be aware of how others are affected, and also let the people in my life know that it’s not them.

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LEARN

Dinner & A Show – Taking a Step Back from Set Backs

I didn’t understand how after so much sexual harassment and assault I could be experiencing it again. How when I learned to say no I still had no voice, when I learned to defend myself my arms were pinned to my side in a crowded subway station late at night.

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LEARN

Note to Self: Consistency Is Key (for a different lock)

Being consistent isn’t doing the “right” things at the “right” intervals. It isn’t all about creating a routine and sticking to it. It’s about consistently trying to do what feels good. By not letting what I’ve predetermined what I want for myself to interrupt what I need to do for myself.

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