Listen to us talk about winter, SAD, and how we feel about the cold and our advice to beat these seasonal feels. We’re recording in Wilder this time round and we’ll be back with a fresh episode Jan 26th!
“I was biased about winter, I wanted to change it so much… I think not trying to change it all the time made it easier.”
“You have the power to make yourself feel warm and comfortable… Winter is about being kind to myself and not always having to live up to these weird expectations of myself”
Getting on a plane to Banff with a one way ticket almost three years ago now. Being literally thousands of miles away from everyone I knew and having to learn who I was without them. Also living on my own and having to make time for boring adult things as well as finding time for my passions .
I was always in such a rooted, permanent state of anxiety that eventually when the stress bottled up to be too much my fight or flight would kick in full force. I didn’t have bad days. I had explosive ones. I was scared to be happy and comfortable.
The Trifecta have all had me fucked up more than once over job hunting. It feels terrible to start working somewhere just to quit a month later. I’ve been there. It’s normal that you’re not cut out for everything in the world.
The superpower of time control. In reality, we have no control of time. It is linear, and cannot be stopped or stretched. Every single living creature shares the same sense of time. My 5 seconds is equal to your 5 seconds. This is reality. But in creative art forms, we are able to control it. For example, still photographers can stop time at one moment. Filmmakers can shrink 3 days into 1 and half hours. Musicians can divide time and transform it into a universal language. It is amazing power we own when we create
What do you think it means to be kind to yourself? How does this compare to how we are kind to others?
Being kind to yourself is recognizing (if you can) what you need, and giving that to yourself. That may mean a night alone watching a TV show, taking an hour of the day to go to the gym or read a book, maybe buying yourself a latte. Just doing things that you think will make you feel better. I think being kind to others is recognizing everyone is a person and has feelings and thoughts, and giving them space to be themselves without judgment.
How does this compare to how you would like to be seen?
Very few people actually see the real me and for the most part, I’m okay with that. But I know some people have a twisted idea of the type of person I am which can be frustrating at times because I know I’m not like that. It comes down to not stressing out about how people see you. As long as you know who you are then that’s all that matters. With that being said, it would be awesome for people one day to see me as a strong and motivated woman that makes things happen for herself.
How has your art brought about an understand of yourself/your world?
I think I interpret my life through writing. Though I don’t journal, I write every day. I work out dreams and troubles as well as anxieties through my writing, and my characters enable me to see different perspectives on a particular difficulty. Some degree of empathy is necessary to breathe life into characters that are dissimilar from oneself. This helps me as I move through the world, and meet people different than myself. I try to learn from everyone — from everything, and incorporate new understandings into my writing.
What are some “taboos” you face in the art community?
Especially with the territory of spoken word: only speaking the truth everyone is comfortable hearing, which is quite suffocating to be honest. Some of my work will never be shared because it need not be understood or liked.