Once I began to look at it objectively and not give it the power to understand it only experientially was when I began to feel empowered again. I had always had the knowledge, but I had never used the knowledge to scrutinize my experience and make better choices. To understand that how I am feeling is real, but also that my ability to be in control is real too.Read more
Pt. 2 When I am full, I wake up in the morning needing to put distance between my head and my tailbone. I need to twist my muscles to make sure that I am filling every gap of myself, like a mould. I […]Read more
9.Give yourself a voice
Giving yourself the power to voice how you are feeling takes away power from the things inside of you that are telling you you’re scared, anxious, worried. I always tell my coworkers and partner when I’m having a tough day. Not only does it make me feel better to not internalize everything, but it helps me to try and change how I am feeling, be aware of how others are affected, and also let the people in my life know that it’s not them.
Many of my friends would label me as a perfectionist. However, few of them realize that such a trait stems directly from my anxiety disorder. With a constant feeling of impending doom, I focus my remaining energy on trying to maintain control of my own life and the current surroundings. This causes me to attempt to control my day to day interactions to ensure I can predict the outcome. Through excessive self-criticism and planning every act down to a tee, I push away the never ending “what-if” scenarios that reside in my brain.Read more
I didn’t understand how after so much sexual harassment and assault I could be experiencing it again. How when I learned to say no I still had no voice, when I learned to defend myself my arms were pinned to my side in a crowded subway station late at night.Read more