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Sifting Through My Education

It seems obvious, but I needed the reminder. She said, “if you need to put your head down and just get through school, then maybe that’s what you need to do. But, every time you talk about your housemates, you laugh and you smile. And so, I have a feeling that although you hate school, you don’t hate everything about being here. And I want to remind you that you will never get to experience these 12 weeks ever again in your life.”

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When I Am Full

Pt. 2                           When I am full, I wake up in the morning needing to put distance between my head and my tailbone. I need to twist my muscles to make sure that I am filling every gap of myself, like a mould. I […]

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“Just Relax”

The ultimate relaxation would be an apology. I would love to sit down and write out an hour long lecture to the people I’m frustrated with or who I feel don’t see my point of view and just really give it to them. Intellectually. Up the ass.

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Mental health is not a priority at this University

Dear Western University, I have been on the Dean’s Honor List, worked tirelessly on my faculty council and volunteered countless hours to the Orientation program, yet I am known to certain members of the administration as the girl who was in the psych ward. My journey accessing Western’s mental health resources (or lack thereof) began […]

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Finding My Way Home

For me, home is predictable. Home is where things have a place, and I know where that place is. Home is being able to sit at a desk and write instead of cramped up on a bed, or being able to use all of the ingredients in my kitchen and not feel guilty for taking 2 days to clean the dishes. Home is where I can figure out my internal chaos without having the external contributing to it.

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Bad Habits

I’m trying to unravel these things. Trying to build a better model. Attempting to instead of always understand why I feel I need them, to just understand that I can’t keep doing them. That knowledge isn’t always the key to moving forward, and that I don’t have to always disassemble the bad to build up the good.

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Lost Songs – Teagan Johnston

I spent a lot of time leading up to our move to Toronto and during our first months here writing and recording songs alone at home with just me and my piano. It was a really interesting time of solitude for me in music and although I would never want to go back to that, a lot of good came from it.

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Fixing Fight or Flight

We’re all deserving of a break, especially from the expectations of our minds. You don’t need to fight or flight from taking a step back and a deep breath in.

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Self-Care To-Go

9.Give yourself a voice
Giving yourself the power to voice how you are feeling takes away power from the things inside of you that are telling you you’re scared, anxious, worried. I always tell my coworkers and partner when I’m having a tough day. Not only does it make me feel better to not internalize everything, but it helps me to try and change how I am feeling, be aware of how others are affected, and also let the people in my life know that it’s not them.

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Welcome To Inside My Head Pt. 2 – Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Many of my friends would label me as a perfectionist. However, few of them realize that such a trait stems directly from my anxiety disorder. With a constant feeling of impending doom, I focus my remaining energy on trying to maintain control of my own life and the current surroundings. This causes me to attempt to control my day to day interactions to ensure I can predict the outcome. Through excessive self-criticism and planning every act down to a tee, I push away the never ending “what-if” scenarios that reside in my brain.

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