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What I Learned From Loneliness

GROW WITH THE LONELY: Intense, long feelings do not go away over night. These things take time to grow and they will take time to chip away at too. Some days you will hit a tender spot. Some days you will be able to take out a good chunk and walk around with a weight off your shoulders. Remember that we contain ourselves, and those spaces you create will be filled with something else. Try to focus on what you want instead of what you have lost. Be easy with yourself as you nurture parts of you that maybe have not seen kindness in a while.

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When I Am Full

Pt. 2                           When I am full, I wake up in the morning needing to put distance between my head and my tailbone. I need to twist my muscles to make sure that I am filling every gap of myself, like a mould. I […]

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When I Am Empty

When I am empty the things that fill me are not big enough to keep themselves from draining through my pores like a salt shaker, and the words do not come easy – are not coming easy.

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“Just Relax”

The ultimate relaxation would be an apology. I would love to sit down and write out an hour long lecture to the people I’m frustrated with or who I feel don’t see my point of view and just really give it to them. Intellectually. Up the ass.

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Active Trust vs. Passive Trust

Innately, we trust people emotionally because of our instincts. The way they treat us, make us feel, open themselves up, etc. We can see distinctly the way in which we can trust people by the way they act – whether we’re consciously making these distinctions or not.

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What I Learned From Dating Women Who Have Been Raped

And, you know, we always act like traumatized people are “broken” or something somehow, but my body knew exactly what it was doing. It did exactly the right thing.

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The Empathy Loop (and 5 ways to break it)

As an empath, I absorb peoples moods like a sponge. Anywhere I go, the energy of the people or the place affects me. I’ve learned along the way to be able to hold my own – especially if I’m feeling good, but I’ve always felt a little too aware of how others are feeling. Sometimes, […]

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The Motivation of Fear

I’ve always struggled to be my best. I think we all do. We’ve been told to push ourselves past limits and be surprised at all we can be and do. This isn’t untrue – I have pushed myself, and been pleasantly surprised at the results. There’s an ever growing definition in each of us of […]

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Finding My Way Home

For me, home is predictable. Home is where things have a place, and I know where that place is. Home is being able to sit at a desk and write instead of cramped up on a bed, or being able to use all of the ingredients in my kitchen and not feel guilty for taking 2 days to clean the dishes. Home is where I can figure out my internal chaos without having the external contributing to it.

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Bad Habits

I’m trying to unravel these things. Trying to build a better model. Attempting to instead of always understand why I feel I need them, to just understand that I can’t keep doing them. That knowledge isn’t always the key to moving forward, and that I don’t have to always disassemble the bad to build up the good.

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