Trying to be honest about yourself in a public way is very challenging. For me, it’s not about the introspection. It’s more about getting over how people are going to react once the story changes. Self-improvement, self-understanding, self-anything is not set in stone. There are days I write from the highest point of my experiences; […]Read more
I’ve never really lived alone. From living with my mom, I went to living in an apartment with a roommate who was always someone I knew in one intimate way or another. I’m not easy to live with. I have high expectations, can be a hypocrite, hate doing the dishes, and want my own personal […]Read more
My point is, it doesn’t harm you to believe in something. It can actually be greatly beneficial to open yourself up to something that may seem like a hoax. It may feel silly to sit with headphones on and your eyes closed listening to a soothing voice and ocean waves, but what do you have to lose from trying?Read more
Do you ever come into abrupt consciousness because of the mundane? You are walking. Walking. Legs moving automatically. Feel the weight of your thighs and the flexibility in your hips. Moving forward. A pace. How can we remember to fidget and blink and lick our lips, but somehow it is so easy to forget how to […]Read more
I love that so many of my friends are talented musicians. In pop, classic, jazz, indie, rock, and hip-hop. When they produce music that I want to listen to (which is always if I’m being real) it’s hard not to share that with the world. When I got this in my mailbox the first thing […]Read more
Over all, I learned to be real with myself. I learned that my ego is telling me I deserve the things that won’t serve me. That fear is what keeps me from doing things that seem strange, like guided meditation. That progress is a slow, and often fickle bitch that will not give me what I want but instead keeps me aware of what I need.Read more
She let go.
Millions of women across the globe marched for their rights as human beings. And in America, my neighbouring country, some cheeto-skinned lunatic in office wearing a bad hair-hat with such a small vocabulary he probably didn’t even understand what he was signing decided that he had the right to determine the outcome and safety of what I take for granted for every. Single. Fucking. Person.
In an entire country.Read more
GROW WITH THE LONELY: Intense, long feelings do not go away over night. These things take time to grow and they will take time to chip away at too. Some days you will hit a tender spot. Some days you will be able to take out a good chunk and walk around with a weight off your shoulders. Remember that we contain ourselves, and those spaces you create will be filled with something else. Try to focus on what you want instead of what you have lost. Be easy with yourself as you nurture parts of you that maybe have not seen kindness in a while.Read more
I think this is why it is often said we need to love ourselves before we love another. Not because we are unable to love others, or to be loved by others. But because it is essential for us to understand how our love feels; what we do and don’t need, what reactions cause what. We need to explore the way we make ourselves feel and understand these emotions. In my experience, if we don’t explore ourselves, we miss that much more in others.Read more